Kakay’s Blog

Hello everybody in the whole wide world! Ang tagal tagal ko palang nawala! Grabe. Ayan, super na-tengga tuloy ang blogspot ko dito sa friendster. Kilala nyo pa kaya ako?

Anyway, ano nga bang balita sa akin ngayon? Eh di heto, nagpapapayat forever to lose my post-pregnancy weight gain. Aba eh, 14 months old na ang anak ko, hindi ko na pwedeng idahilan ang pagbubuntis sa pagiging overweight ko ng mahigit 33 pounds! Hindi na uubra eh.

I had my annual check-up last August. At pesteng mga doctor yan! Aba’y tatlong iba-ibang doctor, akala mo nag-usap-usap dahil iisa lang ang recommendation nila sa akin! To lose weight. Sabi ng Endo, Obese Type 1 na daw ako. Sabi ng OB, I have polycystic ovaries, and as a result, I do not ovulate regularly, and ang cause daw nito ay ang aking pagiging overweight. At ang sabi ng Ortho doctor, I have lumbar lordosis, and because of this I cannot carry anything heavy. Kung di nyo alam kung ano ang lumbar lordosis, aba’y eh di i-google nyo! Hindi naman ako doctor para mag-explain ng medical terms noh! (taray ba? pero in fairness, nahilig na rin ako sa medical terms dahil sa kakanuod ng grey’s anatomy) Basta ang pagkakaintindi ko, kung ang scoliosis ay pa-kuba, ang lordosis ay pa-liyad. Ganun! So, dyan sa mga tao na matagal na akong inookray na parang bibe sa laki ng pwet ko, hindi po kasalanan ng pwet ko ito, ok? The normal degree is 45, and I am 60. So, nasa spinal bone ko po yung pagkakaliyad ng pwet ko, ok??? (Renan, gets mo ba yun, ha?)

So, dahil sa inis ko sa mga doctor, kailangan ko na talagang magpapapayat. Dahil hindi ko rin pwedeng kargahin ang aking napakagandang anak na si Erin who is about 11 kilos now. Or else, I will have the tremendous lower back pains again every night.

Diet, diet, diet once again ang lola nyo. Alam naman nating lahat na hindi umubra ang “See-food” diet ko nuon. So, I am returning to what worked best for me in the past, which is modified Atkins (minimized carbs intake), and amoy-lang-and-no-bite for desserts and anything sweet. Plus, of course, advise from the best Doctor in the whole wide world, my dearest Doctor Owen.

Ayan, in the past 10 weeks, I have been eating yogurt for breakfast; mixed fruits (usually papaya, watermelon, melon, pineapple) and calamansi juice for lunch; a piece of biscuit for snack (the key here is not to finish the whole pack of the biscuit. tikim lang, and then I pass it over to my glamorous seatmates Marky and Lory); …and then two bowls of rice for dinner (JOKE!). For dinner, I usually eat the viand that’s served at the table (most of the time fish or chicken). During the day, I drink at least two liters of water (doesn’t matter if it’s cold or not). Basta, inom lang ng inom! Tapos, wiwi din ng wiwi. Warning lang, nakakapanghina ang halos walang carbs. Minsan, pag nakauwi na ako, gumagabay na ako sa mga dingding ng hallway, para makarating lang sa pintuan ng apartment namin. So, I nourish myself when I get home, kundi wala na akong energy to play with Erin. Kumakain pa rin naman ako, in small servings nga lang.

Now, I have lost 14 pounds so far. So  I need to lose 19 pounds more to get back to my dalaga weight. Pero, hindi naman ako nagmamadali. At least now, hindi na ako penguin maglakad. At wala na ang backpains ko sa gabi.

Kaya lang, nagagalit naman sa akin ang sister kong si Jo Rose. Kasi everytime makikita kaming magkasama, palagi siyang nababati na kelangan magpapapayat, kasi na-co-compare sa akin. Well, in fairness to her, my real face shape is oval, so halata talaga ng lahat when I lose weight kasi humahaba ang face ko. Jo Rose naman, on the other hand, has a round face, so maski na mas malaki ako sa kanya, minsan, mukhang siya ang mas malaki sa akin. Gets? Madaya lang tingnan. So, sis, don’t let them get into you, ok? Mag-diet na lang tayong dalawa.

Come on, let’s die yet! (hehe)

They say that a person starts to have memories of events in his life at three years old. Maybe it’s true. I have some snapshots of my childhood in my head, which now at almost 28 years old, are still vivid. And it’s weird I remember them so well… though I’m not sure if some of these are dreams. But I feel most are real. I don’t know the order of events, but I would just write whatever I remember.

I remember I was with Mama Kristin in a Church where there was a lot of people. And people started lining up at the aisle, she told me to stay put at the pew where we were seated, while she went to get communion. And when she left, I cried to the top of my lungs. And when she came back, she gave me half of the bread that was in her mouth. And I stopped crying. (So I guess the first communion ceremony at school when I was at Grade I was not my first communion after all.)

I remember that my cousin Patrick’s favorite TV show was Knight Rider, and we would watch it together – Pat, sitting on his father’s lap on the sofa; me sitting down the carpet nearer the TV. And during commercial breaks, Pat would go ride his “KITT” toy cart with the red lights lighting up from left to right and back at the bumper.

I remember being afraid of Uncle Greg, because of his very deep voice when he talks.

I remember Aunt Malou putting me on a diet, because the bullies at school tease me. Then, I was eating a raw carrot.

I remember Lola Gueling teaching me to write a letter to my Mom. When I wrote two words without a space in between, Lola tried to correct me, so I put a slash (/) in between the two letters, and Lola put her hand in her head saying “ay, nako! (oh, no!)” because I think I only made it worse. But after that she said, it was ok.

I remember a shallow swimming pool that was set up in a garden, and my little sister Jo Rose (who was maybe 2 or 3 yrs old at that time) and I were fighting over holding the water hose to fill up the pool. As the “ate” (older sister), I was always told to give way to my younger sis. So, I gave her the hose. Then, I went away the pool, hid behind the bend, picked up the hose, and I bent the hose. (I learned this trick from TV, that when you bend a water hose, the water would stop flowing.)  And it worked! When the water stopped from flowing, little Jo Rose looked at the hole of the water hose. And as she put the hose to her face to see what happened, I let go of the bent hose… It was a success! A water burst to Jo Rose’s face! Hahaha… And she had no idea I did it. (Sorry, sis!)

I remember my bachelor uncle putting me to sleep one night, covering me with a blanket, while he was watching TV beside me. He thought I was already asleep, because I didn’t move. But, he caught me peeping under the blanket, and I think he had to turn off the TV… You know what I saw while peeping? – a community where all the people were walking naked. I think the movie was about something like Adam and Eve days…

I remember the morning after I was a flower girl at a wedding of one of my uncles, I was tasked to call my uncle and new aunt for breakfast. And when I entered their room, I felt embarrassed seeing them in their underwear. And I ran out of the bedroom at once. And I did not know why I felt embarrassed over that.

I remember somebody tucking me in bed (I don’t remember who in particular, but it was definitely not Mom) inside a bedroom on the second floor, where the windows were beside a road. And I watched the lights refracted to the ceiling when a car was passing by. I counted them until I fell asleep. I guess the room was a new place, because it took a while before I was able to fall asleep.

I remember when we came back to my Lola Angie’s house, almost everybody in the house was crying and hugging me tight, and there were a lot of stickers on the walls and doors saying “We love Caren”. Lola Angie was giving me a glass of milk, but I didn’t like the taste because it tasted different, too creamy, and it was almost light yellow in color. When I didn’t drink it, Lola Angie tried giving me a teaspoonful of the powder milk, and I didn’t like it either. I really didn’t like the taste of the powder milk in the yellow canister. I was wondering, how could it be milk when it was in powder form?

I know that I did not drink warm milk before going to bed when I was a child. I drank cold fresh milk in the mornings at breakfast. And my Papa did not know that until I resisted to drink the milk that my “Tita Tita” made for me that night. She was a very nice lady. She lent me a big peach night shirt with a big bear printed in the front. (I don’t know, but I guess I was not able to bring any of my clothes with me that night.) “Tita Tita” sang me lullabyes (which I was not used to), until I fell asleep. Then, when I woke up, I asked for the milk they were giving me last night, but it was already spoiled. But “Tita Tita” said she would just make a new one for me.

These are what I have as early memories, which I would tag as 3 to 5 (my age)… Of course there are a lot more that I remember from the time I celebrated my 6^th birthday. And I think that marks a whole new chapter of my life as a child.

To my dearest Lola Gueling, I will miss you so much. I know you are looking after us from heaven. I love you.